Creating a place for my thoughts has been in the back of my mind for a while now. I've had a habit of pouring my thoughts to my friends whenever I've had an overflow of them within me, but I suspect blogging might be a better, more constructive way of doing it. In addition, I had this repeatedly surfacing desire to create a website like All The Cool People had back when I was younger and had no clue on how to program anything, much less a website. How text could transform into colours, graphics and other kinds of magic always seemed to be beyond me and something unachievable.

Now, after my university studies things hardly seemed that distant (nor magical!) any longer, but both me and the Interned had grown and changed. I knew I could make a website myself (and for myself), but there hardly seemed to be any point in making one unless it was to house your CV or some kind of Cool App. In this atmosphere playing around with HTML and CSS was seen as a necessary evil - a hurdle in the way of doing the Actually Cool Things. I think there is space for both in this world, but I seem to have found some of my lost love in tinkering with sites like these: personal, customised and interesting spaces, that need to serve no purpose other than "I just wanted to make it".

Even with all of this, things must get to a boiling point before something happens. What was it that turned my fleeting thoughts of my own space on the internet into the act of actually doing it? To be quite fair, I had had my moments of doing something just to give up (such as adding Zonelets base to my website just to never configure and customise it), but it seemed to never turn into anything. You know, just another abandoned, barely made Neocities page.

Many acts are a culmination of many little things, and so was this. I guess my latest work project awoke a sense of capability in me; I guess I had recovered enough from my burnout; I guess I had learned empathy towards myself and tolerance for imperfection and incompleteness; I guess I stumbled upon one too many cool websites with Very Cute Frog Gifs. Who knows.

In any case, here we are. And having finished this, my first version of my own website, I felt a sense of creative joy in a way that had been absent from my mind and heart for a long while. So even with as little content as there is here right now, I feel accomplished for having done something. With more to come, I hope.

In other news, I went and purchased a tea advent calendar from my local tea shop for Christmas this year. I can't wait to get started with brewing and tasting all of it!